I've always believed in life after death and needed to. One of the reasons Ianto's death hit me so hard when less than a year before my granddad's death barely touched me was because I know that my granddad is back with my granny, where he's wanted to be since she died, and that I'll see them again one day. With Ianto, he's fictional, so I won't see him there, but also I couldn't believe in that salvation for him in his universe either, because they kept telling us there wasn't one.

House of the Dead was a nice contradition of that that I really needed, but I also needed not to lose him all over again. I still don't know quite how to deal with it