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Natasha in The Avengers
Oct. 25th, 2012 11:02 pmOne day in July I saw The Avengers for the seventh time at Brandon...
When I was growing up, I didn't really care about my appearance. I wore hand-me-downs from my brothers or stuff from thrift stores. Wal-mart was a rarity since their clothes were expensive for a limited budget and three kids. I wore vests when it wasn't trendy. I wore t-shirts from the boy's area.
However, I've always been big on pink, purple and turquoise with pink being my absolute favorite.
Pink is actually a hard color to keep as a favorite. It has baggage. A lot of people think pink is the color you say when you can't be bothered with coming up with a real one: the default favorite color for any girl. Then, you get older and people automatically assume you to be old-fashioned and backward. It was as though it wasn't "feminist" to like pink. Now, if wear or buy pink items, people assume you're making as political statement.
"Oh, breast cancer!"
No, I fucking like pink, back off. I'm trying to use my voice more. Before I didn't care, now it's kind of like...if I don't say anything, maybe no one else will.
I often come up with people to aspire to. In real life, they tend to be men. In fandom, they tend to be women. Currently, my fandom hero is Natasha Romanoff especially her sense of style and self-worth.
I know she's sexy and beautiful but it's not like Pepper where her appearance is all about appearances which means the latest styles and expensive shoes.
Natasha is more about what works for her in that situation. It took seeing a photo on Tumblr and seven times of watching it before I realized that she even had earrings on in the interrogation scene. Did her alias Natalie wear skirts? No, it was always pants.
Her SHIELD suit looks like it would be hot so it seems natural that she would keep it zipped down a bit to let in the air conditioning if there is any. I know the cynical view is to think they need the cleavage for the male audience members and this is probably true but it's more fun to think from a character standpoint. She uses her cleavage to her advantage. I've had some experience with this but mostly, I've been shy. I'm the one buttoning every single button while my mom goes, "You don't have to do that..."
It didn't help that having huge boobs from a young age does not make you very popular among your own kind and they teased me mercilessly at the public pool that I should be wearing a shirt over my one-piece swimsuit instead of having "your titties everywhere".
So, I've been trying to be more like Natasha and leave the buttons undone, the pants a little tighter...I even considered bikinis. Plus, I've been trying to let myself be more stereotypically feminine in general without feeling like I'm letting down equality or selling out.
I've even found that dresses can be kind of fun.
My mom recently elaborated on finding "red in my ledger" hokey. She wonders whether in this age of digital accounting people will even understand what she means.
Me: So, she's old-fashioned?
My Mom: Yeah.
I understand how on one hand, the Soviet Union did create a void where people had to make do with older items and ideas. Natasha is also extremely well-read and those with that quality tend to have more appreciation for the older things.
There's also one other possibility...
Movie Natasha is like comic Natasha and actually about 70 years old...
Damn, she's awesome.
When I was growing up, I didn't really care about my appearance. I wore hand-me-downs from my brothers or stuff from thrift stores. Wal-mart was a rarity since their clothes were expensive for a limited budget and three kids. I wore vests when it wasn't trendy. I wore t-shirts from the boy's area.
However, I've always been big on pink, purple and turquoise with pink being my absolute favorite.
Pink is actually a hard color to keep as a favorite. It has baggage. A lot of people think pink is the color you say when you can't be bothered with coming up with a real one: the default favorite color for any girl. Then, you get older and people automatically assume you to be old-fashioned and backward. It was as though it wasn't "feminist" to like pink. Now, if wear or buy pink items, people assume you're making as political statement.
"Oh, breast cancer!"
No, I fucking like pink, back off. I'm trying to use my voice more. Before I didn't care, now it's kind of like...if I don't say anything, maybe no one else will.
I often come up with people to aspire to. In real life, they tend to be men. In fandom, they tend to be women. Currently, my fandom hero is Natasha Romanoff especially her sense of style and self-worth.
I know she's sexy and beautiful but it's not like Pepper where her appearance is all about appearances which means the latest styles and expensive shoes.
Natasha is more about what works for her in that situation. It took seeing a photo on Tumblr and seven times of watching it before I realized that she even had earrings on in the interrogation scene. Did her alias Natalie wear skirts? No, it was always pants.
Her SHIELD suit looks like it would be hot so it seems natural that she would keep it zipped down a bit to let in the air conditioning if there is any. I know the cynical view is to think they need the cleavage for the male audience members and this is probably true but it's more fun to think from a character standpoint. She uses her cleavage to her advantage. I've had some experience with this but mostly, I've been shy. I'm the one buttoning every single button while my mom goes, "You don't have to do that..."
It didn't help that having huge boobs from a young age does not make you very popular among your own kind and they teased me mercilessly at the public pool that I should be wearing a shirt over my one-piece swimsuit instead of having "your titties everywhere".
So, I've been trying to be more like Natasha and leave the buttons undone, the pants a little tighter...I even considered bikinis. Plus, I've been trying to let myself be more stereotypically feminine in general without feeling like I'm letting down equality or selling out.
I've even found that dresses can be kind of fun.
My mom recently elaborated on finding "red in my ledger" hokey. She wonders whether in this age of digital accounting people will even understand what she means.
Me: So, she's old-fashioned?
My Mom: Yeah.
I understand how on one hand, the Soviet Union did create a void where people had to make do with older items and ideas. Natasha is also extremely well-read and those with that quality tend to have more appreciation for the older things.
There's also one other possibility...
Movie Natasha is like comic Natasha and actually about 70 years old...
Damn, she's awesome.
