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Work Post: Closed
Mar. 21st, 2020 12:21 amSo, on Thursday, one of my managers called that if I wanted I wanted my Friday check, I had about 10 minutes to do so before they closed the store. She said they were supposed to be out by noon. When I got there, Y arrived for her noon shift...they never even called her not to come in.
We're being paid for all hours scheduled this week. The new two weeks will be a paycheck of our average hours...which is totally generous. I kept expecting us to shut down. We're a retail store right next to the hospital so all staff, patients, visitors come to us during spare moments. I've been kind of paranoid that someone would spread to it myself and/or all of my coworkers. Plus, we have a lot of shoppers that meet the CDC guidelines for CANNOT GET IT.
Heck, myself and my mom both meet those guidelines...
Anyway, I've been living with this constant threat of whether I would get sick or they would close the store. At least with a hurricane, we have a timeframe. We know the latest they could possibly keep us open. This had no timeframe, no cone of uncertainty.
I thought I would feel better that we were closed, that the uncertainty would be gone.
Instead, the coming in special, the promises of mailing future paychecks, keeping in touch, it being the 19th again...
It made me flashback to when they closed the restaurant and we all got laid off. I KNOW that I am getting paid, that my job is secure at least for 6 months or so...I think this being resolved in two weeks is laughable, that I have amassed a savings for just such an occasion because my generation doesn't believe in depending on steady employment...
Logically, I knows things are okay...
But what I FEEL is not this, what I feel like is that I've gotten laid off again...that same sense of abandonment and betrayal and it's stupid but that's where I am and I hope it passes quickly just as I hope nothing more serious happens to us or anyone around us or you.
We're being paid for all hours scheduled this week. The new two weeks will be a paycheck of our average hours...which is totally generous. I kept expecting us to shut down. We're a retail store right next to the hospital so all staff, patients, visitors come to us during spare moments. I've been kind of paranoid that someone would spread to it myself and/or all of my coworkers. Plus, we have a lot of shoppers that meet the CDC guidelines for CANNOT GET IT.
Heck, myself and my mom both meet those guidelines...
Anyway, I've been living with this constant threat of whether I would get sick or they would close the store. At least with a hurricane, we have a timeframe. We know the latest they could possibly keep us open. This had no timeframe, no cone of uncertainty.
I thought I would feel better that we were closed, that the uncertainty would be gone.
Instead, the coming in special, the promises of mailing future paychecks, keeping in touch, it being the 19th again...
It made me flashback to when they closed the restaurant and we all got laid off. I KNOW that I am getting paid, that my job is secure at least for 6 months or so...I think this being resolved in two weeks is laughable, that I have amassed a savings for just such an occasion because my generation doesn't believe in depending on steady employment...
Logically, I knows things are okay...
But what I FEEL is not this, what I feel like is that I've gotten laid off again...that same sense of abandonment and betrayal and it's stupid but that's where I am and I hope it passes quickly just as I hope nothing more serious happens to us or anyone around us or you.
